I am overweight. I am in no way comfortable in my own skin. I don’t like being in public and thinking that I am being ridiculed. On the other hand, my selfie game is strong. I know which angles look best. I can photograph myself and paint a very flattering picture. This is with headshots and full body shots. I know there are some out there who will only post photos from the cleavage up, and they will crop the fuck out of the photo, as well. Though I’m not a fan of cropping, I understand the impulse. We all have that one thing that we think doesn’t look good.
I’ve had two children via c-section and a hysterectomy. To say my pelvic muscles are wrecked is a bit of an understatement. That’s not to say that there is nothing that can be done. I can exercise and eat right, I just choose not to. That’s why I don’t complain about my weight. It’s nobody’s fault but my own.
(angles, filters, and high heels)
My biggest problem, I think, is that I look for outside validation. I was on Instagram, and the comments from men AND women absolutely made my day. Unfortunately, I married a very jealous man, and my flirting was too much. I can understand that, as well. I am not a jealous person, but I knew this about him 14 years ago, when we first started dating. So, I voluntarily left the site in order to bring some peace to our household. Sadly, I am now getting into a rut, and feel like a blob. I know what I HAVE to do, but the motivation to do it just isn’t there 😦
(cropping out the gross parts)